Oh no!!! Seems like one of those days where I can be a real pain; depressed and high on self pity mixed with a healthy dose of self loathing.
I think I am getting dumber by the day…there’s no use beating around the bush or tip-toeing around this issue anymore, touchy though I may be. I have become as dull as dishwater and am losing all hope of returning to what I took for granted to be my normal self. My brain has turned to a gooey mess of molasses and takes ages to process the simplest of information. I wonder what happened to that person who was interested in a lot of stuff and eager to try new and different things, only a few years back.
These days I consider it a significant achievement if I am able to get my laziness out of bed and go through my things to do for the day, mostly in a robotic fashion if I may add . I seem to have lost total interest, there’s nothing, zilch…nada…nothing at all. My grandma was way sharper at 90 than I am now…Why do I feel so old so suddenly with nothing to look forward to?
I don’t even know the reason I have inflicted this pathetic excuse of a post on you guys; but I had to write down my feelings somewhere, for this to sink in and for me to try and do something about it. Ignore my complaining and try to have a nice weekend.